one more thing . . . .about God

by Charlie - 10/14/16 4:40 PM

I cannot OVERSTSATE that for the past 18 mos. I feel as if God has forgotten me, and I've almost lost faith. Here's only a FEW things to hit me HARD: My wife did a 180 degree personality turn, and now, the only woman I ever married has ripped my heart to shreds. The cat I had developed the closest, most deep bond with (Maverick) My "little buddy" for 16 years was diagnosed with oral cancer last year, and for 61 days, 24 hours a day, I kept him as comfortable as possible, giving him IV's for fluid, liquifying his food, feeding him with a syringe, cleaning his face and loving him as best I could, with ZERO help from my wife. I didn't sleep or eat during that time. I paid no attention to my OWN health, and ended up in the hospital 2 days after I had to let Maverick go. I lost 36 pounds in those 61 days, (all muscle mass) became very sick, then fell into a very serious depression. I LOOK like I'm 75 years old at only 56. So, with no family, and my wife ignoring me, I truly thought God would comfort me. Instead, more things have gone wrong, my wife mismanaged my monies, she didn't pay my health insurance (unknown to me until I began to get what is now over 10 thousand dollars in medical bills) my credit is ruined, I'm broke and totally alone. I developed ulcers and Barret's esophogus, chronic insomnia, chronic spinal pain, and non-stop heartbreak from the woman I love so much. Where is God? I would really like to know, because I'm very close to giving up.

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